In Our Story This Week - At Last He Came

When I was six years old I had a dream ,a dream of a man with a voice that even at such a young age sunk deep in my subconscious mind. He was a little older than me in this dream,I remember his hair,his skin color and his lips and his eyes which showed me his soul and the comfort of being loved. This man lived with me in my subconscious mind  through the years and as an adult with every love interest,partner or  husband I have had I kept looking because I felt the man I needed to meet was the man I met in my dreams at six years old. Strange we would say but it happened ,no wonder I tend to believe in reincarnation,serendipty and the power of the subconscious mind.

Each time I met someone these memories of this man would surface ,some had some parts and came close but I knew deep down it was not the man.Quietly and secretly it seemed I was on a mission to find this man I did not know how but I somehow knew deep down he was here somewhere and that I would meet him.


So yes I dated and loved and lost been married more than once and had my beautiful children,still remain friends with my exes and still believed that no matter what was happening I would meet him.
I believe in love and in me and unconditional love and I also believe that each partner meets us at our point of consciousness and I also believe in dating and filling up the love basket and healing to be ready to meet this man. I call him "My Man"   

Yes, that is what I call him. Well in the process of meandering and learning lessons along the way I have given back to my friends and seen where my as I call it "armchair layperson guidance and counselling,sisterly chat" has helped many .They say giving to others will be returned to you double time.

So three years after my divorce and learning more lessons from a great guy friend I was on hiatus from my job and was home, for six weeks. My  daughter who has a great relationship with her husband said "Mom you are everything wonderful ,the only thing missing is a wonderful companion. She said "why don't you go out?" and I told her  as I always do that the right perfect person would come when I was ready and I felt ready and that I could stay in my bed and still find him. She said "ya ya mom right"
She then told me to try online dating as she had friends who had had success,I told her I would think about it and I began my research.
It seemed fascinating and being the open minded person that I am ,it seemed there would be nothing to lose. It would be sort of like a blind date or meeting some one randomly,the advantage, I could stay in my bed pick,choose,refuse,laugh,flirt and make my decision. it was not like going to a party hoping to be picked or to be seen trying to make eye contact,I had better options.
So I signed up on three prominent sites, got many winks and responses. I did not even put my picture up,guess my profile was impressive.I had phone contact with one guy and I remember a very weird thing happened when he said hello to me  I said "This is not the voice I expected to hear" I was thinking ooopsies. I then told him I just expected him to sound differently I could not like him and was grown up enough after to call it "No go"
So I decided one night to explore another site the name just popped in my head (I wont say it now) googled it and it did exist guess my subsconcious was talking to me. I was ecstatic. I signed up and within two days I met him  -yes "My Man" oh what a man. The site sent me pictures and profiles of various men but when I saw him I said "oh my God there he is"  and then I read his introduction and "I went oh my word", his use of english ,his phrases and just how confident he sounded from his profile and yes he had the lips and the eyes that seemed to look through the picture in my soul. I became excited and checked off "Yes" to him only.
The day after they sent me an email response -"You both said Yes" I almost fell off my chair with delight'

Of course I did not post a picture he wanted one I told him no as I was confident we would be a hit and we would be physically,emotionally,sexually,spiritually ,mentally and all the other positive "llys"
Well we chatted through the site a few times and within the week he sent me his phone number for me to call him yes he did. So the night when I got home I called him,he did not answer the phone but I got his voice mail, Oh my word when I heard his voice mail I almost fainted I could not believe it,the voice I have waited for for so many years I started to shake and jump for joy imagine in this life time " he came".

Next week I  will tell you about our first conversation and big first date  -talk about needing a fire hose to dampen the flame oh what a fire.